Procrastination

[oloriel]

I'm an idiot.
I'm so angry at myself right now.
I knew I head to write that term paper till March 7 since, like, January.
I knew I'd need time.

I sat there, every day, reading a bit of the stuff I copied, making some notes.
But nothing more.
Somehow, there was always tomorrow.
Well, tomorrow is March 7.

So now I have to try to do it all at once.
Sure, I've written exams.
Where I've written way more than the 6 pages required now.
Within 3 hours.

But I didn't have to quote several texts there.
No stupid experts.
And no distractions.
That's the main point, I think.

My problem is not that I don't use time for the things I like to do.
My problem is that I don't use time for the things I have to do.
I procrastinated.
Once again.

It's not gonna break my neck.
I know that somehow, tomorrow morning, I will have written the term paper.
I'll get a grade, maybe none too good, but I'll pass.
That's the worst thing.

I hardly do anything, I pass,
So I don't learn from it.
Sure it's a blessing, in a way.
But it's fucking annoying.