oloriel: (for delirium was once delight)
Sick again.

I've always been prone to getting a sore throat in winter, or at any rate I've been since the winter of 1998 (TM) when I caught some kind of throat infection on a school skiing trip to Spindleruv Mlyn in the Czech Republic and was coughing and suffering from occasional bouts of voicelessness for three months. I may have had the problem before that, but that's the first time I actively remember. After that, it happened pretty much every winter (and also in summer if I happen to be in a country that aggressively air-conditions its rooms).

I am adding this seemingly random piece of background information because the first thing my mom said when I was sick was "Maybe you're using your voice wrong" and it's like YES, maybe I am, but it wouldn't be a problem if I hadn't already had a sore throat before that. "But you haven't had the problem before you started teaching!" Actually, I've been having it for at least 20 years, but go off I guess...

Anyway. I've always been prone to getting a sore throat, and when it's already slightly sore and you still have to talk to classes full of 25+ kids in various stages of "It's been too long since the last holidays" and "is it Christmas already", the voice just gives at some point.

At home now. Still went to school in the morning (after already being nearly too hoarse to talk yesterday) because I had promised my 6th graders that we'd bake cookies in the last English lesson before the holidays. We've been having a rough couple of weeks, and the baking was pretty much an olive branch. (I did have to exclude two particularly rowdy students, though. I expect there will be a great deal of resentment, but I can't have kids who constantly provoke and push others, ignore directions, throw things around, and then lie blatantly about it, in a kitchen full of hot ovens.) The kids had bought the ingredients and all, so it would have been awkward to postpone that until after the holidays.

It went reasonably well, too. I think most of them enjoyed themselves, even those (or especially those?) who had apparently never followed a recipe before. A few months ago, the class had complained that all the other 6th grades had home economy classes and went to the kitchen regularly (actually, two out of four had home economy this term, and the other two - including mine - will have it next term... but tell that to twelve-year-olds who feel that they're being treated unfairly!), which was why I'd had the idea of baking cookies with them in the first place. Because we didn't have much time - 90 minutes - and I didn't know what skill level to expect, I gave them the recipes in German so no time was lost translating things. Even so, we managed to finish baking just before recess, and only one group had actually cleaned their workspace, too.

One group left all their cleaning-up to one guy, and completely forgot to leave some cookies for him. Fortunately, another group had produced so much dough that they still had two baking trays in the oven when most of the others had stormed out for recess, so he could still get his fill. There was some ~drama~ because of (ultimately - of course) a misunderstanding. A completely stupid story! One girl had cleaned but not dried a bowl before use. The others in her group then proceded to use that bowl to make dough. Then one boy complained of a stomach ache. Then another boy started to feel queasy, too. Of course, these things are contagious in a hypochondriac way, so soon enough, the whole group was complaining of feeling sick, and rather than realising that maybe the boys who'd complained first shouldn't have snarfled quite so much unbaked cookie dough (with raw egg and baking powder in it!), they decided that it MUST have been because the girl had left some washing-up liquid in the bowl. The rumour spread rapidly and in the end the girl broke down in tears because "everybody" believed that she had "poisoned" her group. (By that time, incidentally, I had managed to convince the boys that a) the liquid used in manual dish-washing is so mild that you would have to ingest a lot more to get sick, b) if they were so frightened of washing-up liquid, they should maybe have dried the bowl before use, and c) perhaps one should have minded what I said re:eating raw cookie dough. Then the boy who'd started the rumour wanted to apologise to the girl, but by then she refused to speak with him...)

Aside from that, though, most of them worked together pretty well and organised themselves with minimal instruction (aside from the recipes). And the cookies turned out palatable, too (except for one batch, which the group forgot to save from the oven in time). So I hope that on the whole, it's been a good experience for them. (I secretly want to be a Cool Teacher who does Fun Stuff with them, but unfortunately I'm often doomed to be an Annoying Teacher who forces them to learn Awful Grammar. I always loved grammar! I don't know how to make Parts of Speech exciting for people who aren't already excited by them! And we aren't taught, either, because they're supposed to have learned the basics in German class, and we're expected to be able to just build on that. Doesn't work so well, though...)

Three more days to the holidays. (The students always seem surprised when teachers announce that they're looking forward to the holidays, as if we weren't as human as they are!)
oloriel: (cut out this f*cking noise!)
that almost turned shittier in its last week.

Christmas was calm and... enjoyable, but that enjoyment came with mixed feelings. It was the first Christmas Eve without my grandmother (Mom'm mom). She was missing, period. (When we told Felix that we'd be celebrating Christmas Eve at our house, "all of us together", he immediately said "not all of us") And whenever someone said or I thought that it was a lovely evening, there was an unsaid "Grandma Erika would have enjoyed it" swinging along. The kids got far too many presents and couldn't even unwrap them all that evening.
Part of what made this Christmas so nice and calm was also that there were only two days of feasting, rather than the usual three-with-everybody-fit-to-burst-and-unable-to-appreciate-more-goodness marathon we've been running in the past years. Which also comes with mixed feelings, because the reason for the lack of a third day of feasting is that my grandfather (Dad's dad) appears to be increasingly in the grips of dementia. He is now living in an old people's home and it was agreed that it would be too confusing for him to drive him out to my Uncle's where we've been having out Feast of Stephen/Boxing Day (which is also a federal holiday in Germany - we get two and a half days off for Christmas) feast in the past decade. So his children (my dad and his two brothers) and their wives went to visit him at his new home, but none of the grandchildren. They weren't certain that the great-grandchildren (my sons) wouldn't be bored to death and/or kick up too much trouble so we didn't go, either. As it happened, grandpa asked specifically how Felix and "the little one" were doing so maybe we should have gone. So there's feelings of guilt about that, too.

That's not the shitty part, though. The shitty part is how on Sunday, Julian ("the little one") climbed onto a chair to reach for a box of cookies. It all went so fast that I didn't even see it happening properly, but he seems to have leaned too far to the side and fell off the chair (standing up), right onto his back and head. Wam.
I rushed over to pick him up and cuddle him close. He started crying. When children cry, they will sometimes take a looong breath before continuing to sob, but this time the looooong breath wasn't followed by a loud wail (as "normal"), just a strange little whimper. NO NO NOT GOOD. So I let him sink into my arms to take a look at his eyes and the worst thing happened, the sort of thing you never, never want to experience and I definitely never, ever want to see again:
His eyes rolled up, and his head lolled back, and his entire little body went limp.
In retrospect, the image that comes to mind is that of a candle being snuffed out. When it happened, I had no such images in my mind; I just cried "JULIAN! OH MY GOD!" which at least had the effect of his eyes fluttering back open. But his breathing was still very flat and laboured, and there was no tension whatsoever in his limbs. So I held him close and upright with his head resting on my shoulder and his limp little limbs trailing down my arm and called Jörg and told him that we needed to go to the hospital. Worst moments ever. Jörg used his flashlight to check Julian's pupillary reflexes, which were normal - some small consolation - but it was still horrible.
Well, as we were getting into the car, the tension returned into Julian's limbs and he audibly said "Ma? Mama!", and when I put him into his seat he was flailing his legs in excitement (Julian loves riding the car, or in fact anything that's got to do with cars or just wheels) and asking for "Papa?" who was shutting the garage door. That was some serious relief. By the time we reached the hospital, he had regained full control over his body. When we registered with Pediatric A&E, he was extremely cuddly and more passive than usual, but we weren't even certain whether that was still because of the accident or because of the strange place and strange people. On the whole, he was doing so well that I was already feeling slightly guilty about taking away time and attention from people with seriously ill kids (TM). Julian did well on all the check-ups they did. But the hospital folks agreed that a fall on the head shouldn't be taken lightly. In spite of not throwing up, Julian was very likely concussed and there was a risk of further brain injury. Not enough risk to justify an immediate CAT scan, but enough that they wanted to keep him under close watch for a couple of days.
So we spent the last couple of days in hospital. Fortunately, I was allowed to stay with Julian the whole time. Also fortunately, Felix took it reasonably well and behaved himself very well with just Jörg and Jörg's mom around. (When I was in hospital after Julian's birth, Jörg's mom and Jörg were completely exhausted from dealing with the Flixster.) Julian showed no further signs of injury; in fact, the evening after his accident (i.e., a few hours later), it was already impossible to keep him from climbing around on hospital chairs and running along the corridors and bossing me around in the hospital playroom ("Mama, bau!", "Mom, build!"). As if to reassure us that no lasting harm was done to his brain, he has since acquired new words ("das?" ["that?", used as a question, as in "What's that?") and Mist! ["crap!"]) and continues to babble merrily. So we got lucky.

But it was still a horrid feeling. And on a somewhat less dramatic scale, it was another case of loosing precious days and not getting anything that I'd planned done. I know it's ridiculous to think that everything will magically be better just because of a number on the calendar, but man, I'm so ready for 2015 to be over.
oloriel: (hp - hug a dark lord today)


Anyway, proper LJ post?
It might be. Of course, it is not the catch-up post that needs to be done. Instead, let me talk about Budapest.

First I have to admit something: On my inner map, Budapest was a place filed under the category of Meh (I guess you can go there, but I don't really have to). Don't tell me how silly that is, don't laugh at me, don't ask why, that's just the way it was.

Long post is long, and culminates in parental whining. )

Anyway, Budapest. Budapest is really nice, as cities go, and if you get a chance to go there, do that. With or without a wedding to attend.

Blaaaah.

Mar. 21st, 2013 06:54 pm
oloriel: (cut out this f*cking noise!)


The Flixster is sleeping.

I should be painting.

Well, I should be doing a lot of things. But on the recreational front, one of them is painting. Either Easter eggs (to give to various family members in a week's time), for obvious reasons, or the Prophecy of the North painting I started.

But I don't wanna. I've finished all the broad background work, now I have to tackle the finicky detail stuff, and I'm apparently not in the right mode for that. (Who knew I had different painting modes? Well, I found out that I do. I'm still in "some rough brushstrokes make a sea and wet-in-wet stick figures make a distant crowd" mode, and this is absolutely incompatible with faces and clothing and stuff. Don't know how to get myself into "finicky detail work" mode. Ruined Finarfin's face already. Blaaaaah.)

I think I'd like to do some gardening, but even if it weren't beginning to get dark-ish, there's still snow everywhere, so that's not a feasible option.
Of course, I could also work on some of my story WiPs, either fannish or original, but we're 21 days into B2MeM - I need a break.

All I seem to be able to do right now is read some senseless snippets or brief LJ entries and comments and stuff. Or chat maybe. I can't focus on anything longer. (This may actually have to do with being unable to focus on the process of painting the foreground figures? IDK.) I'm in a tumblr state of mind, it seems. But all my usual sources of senseless and/or brief snippets of information, entertainment or communications appear to be dried up just now.
Typical.

Whine, whine.

I hate it when I don't seem to be able to do anything useful (or even useless) with myself. Maaan, I'm almost 30. I really should have learned to pull myself together by now, no?

Apparently not.
Blaaaah.

Still not Spring.
oloriel: (tolkien - tell them I ain't coming back)


Guess who finally got a confirmation e-mail for her MEF ticket? That's right, that's me!

\o/ \o/ \o/

Leuk, here we come! Next summer will be epic. w00t!

- - -

In less delightful news, my car is now gone. No, I didn't have an accident, it's just tear and wear and old age and rational thinking. Now I took it to our friendly neighbourhood garage and won't get it back. Feel like a traitor. Longer entry will no doubt follow some day later.
oloriel: (for delirium was once delight)


First things first:
Happy belated birthdays, [livejournal.com profile] coppertone, [livejournal.com profile] dawn_felagund, [livejournal.com profile] juno_magic, [livejournal.com profile] kaneda and [livejournal.com profile] macalla_! I fail so hard. I hope you all had reasonably enjoyable days, whether you celebrated on a grand scale or not.
- - -

Yesterday I had to decide between being lazy and eating sandwiches or being good and cooking the main course of the fall menu I'd decided on last week. Then I checked the best-before date of the duck and the decision was made for me: either make it now or risk that it turns bad. So I made the duck.
This turned out to be a very good thing (aside from the fact that it tasted awesome) because I then found out that Julie & Julia was on TV. I hadn't seen it before, so I grasped the chance to watch it now, and I don't think it's a movie you can easily watch with nothing but sandwiches (or, for that matter, nachos or popcorn) to go on. Duck à l'orange with mushrooms, pumpkin and sweet chestnuts, on the other hand, was an acceptable accompaniment...

Also yesterday, in a moment of madness, I signed up for NaNo after all. I won't actually be very creative, though: I'll just use the chance (or not) to write a (retrospective, perforce) diary of our first three months with Felix before I forget everything and tell new mothers "Enjoy this wonderful time" myself. (Disclaimer: I love my son and I wanted to have him, but the first three months with a baby are full of horrible, stressful moments, and the last thing you need implied is that it's actually wonderful and you're doing something wrong if you don't think so.) We'll see how that goes. At least I won't have to come up with a plotline ;)

Speaking of Felix, his sleeping schedule (which was reasonable nice for about a week: he only woke once per night) is shot to hell again, meaning that he wakes up and cries miserably three or more times, and has trouble getting to sleep in the first place. *sighs* I really don't know what to do. Everyone and their dog's brother's boyfriend keep telling you that after three months, all should be well sleep-wise. Actually it seems that 40% of children don't develop a sleep rhythm that vaguely matches their parents' until they reach the age of 6 months, or so I've read, but as everyone I know seems to belong to the other 60%, I feel vaguely guilty again. (And I really do my best in terms of good-night, rituals - cuddling, nursing, song and all!) It doesn't help that he seems to be preparing for another growth spurt, which tends to make him peevish anyway.
Oh well. If he already had a rhythm, it'd probably have been shot to hell by the return to Winter Time last Sunday. Now it's dark at 5 pm again. I really wish we'd do like the Russians and stay on Daylight Savings Time all year round.
At least Jörg has a chance to get some sleep - he's on a business trip to Munich this week. His paternity leave ended last week and about the first thing he was told was that this trip had to be taken (for the sake of a seminar that apparently wasn't really worth the long journey, but at least he's away from the company).

This morning I had a bad case of Teh Stoopid: After breakfast and changing Felix' nappies, I went down to the compost heap (because yesterday's duck orgy resulted in lots of organic waste). As I went out the door, I slapped the pocket of my pants and heard the reassuring "clink" of keys, so I cheerfully pulled the door locked behind me. When I returned, I found out that the key in my pocket was the one for the ex-pigsty/now-laundry room. Where was my house key? Well, not out here where I was.
Now normally I would've asked one of our neighbours to use their phone, called the mother-in-law who has a spare key, and then she'd have come over and saved me (us). But the mother-in-law has just had knee surgery: She's lying in hospital and in no shape to come driving anywhere.
After some colourful curses and a short round of the grounds (to pacify Felix, who apparently sensed my agitation and started crying), I tried to lure Mr. Darcy outside - I knew he was inside because he'd insisted on cuddling while I'd been changing Felix diapers; then he curled up in Jörg's Poäng chair and fell asleep. Mr. Darcy is a very clever cat who knows how to open doors, and generally does so when nobody expects him to. Now, however, he was fast asleep and didn't react at all. I waited a while, tried again, then gave up and rang at our tenants' door. Fortunately, these tenants are lovely, lovely people. Mrs. G. immediately dug out the old infant car seat of her daughter and gave me her car keys so I could go to the hospital in Remscheid where, fortunately, the MIL had our key. So all was well - but damn, that was stupid.
About three hours after our return from Remscheid, Mr. Darcy woke up - and opened the back door to let himself out. Thanks, cat, I love you too!

And that concludes today's status update. Take care, be good, and always make sure you've got the right keys on your person!
oloriel: (I'M TRANQUIL AS A RIVER DAMMIT.)


Ok.

So let's assume I have written a short story. No, it is not important, it is only fanfic for the SWG birthday bash, so it matters only to me and perhaps five other people. But.

My computer has apparently completely eaten it. Not as in, "I can't find it," but as in, "I can find it but can't open it, because my computer has decided that it is encoded funnily and when I ask it to decode and open it, all I get is three pages of ##############. Oh, the last footnote is actually legible. Hurrah.

As I don't think I have the heart to re-write the entire bloody story, even if it was cute and fluffy and even though it was only three pages... do any of you have any awesome tricks re: salvaging files ruined by computer? If you do, give them to me.

Otherwise I am going to break down and cry, I am serious, because this appears to be melodramatic emo Lyra summer or something of the sort AND I DO NOT WANT DAMMIT.

- - -

In less desperate news, I took the cats to the vet today. Nothing bad, just their annual vaccinations. They, of course, considered that extremely bad. 'náro in fact found it so bad that he -- busted his transport box and walked around in the car. Have you ever tried to drive a car while a cat was inspecting the back seat, the trunk, the leg room, finally sitting down half-way across the hand brake and my the driver's right leg? Well, I have. It works, but only just. >_>

Urgk.

Oct. 20th, 2009 08:41 pm
oloriel: (lotr - sometimes i'm just tired.)


After last week's frost this week temperatures have risen above 0°C again, hurrah. The frost reminded us, however, that we have to get the concrete poured fast, seeing how it cannot set at temperatures below +5°C and it needs several days to set so one night's frost would be enough to ruin the whole thing. (What does the water in the concrete do in a frosty night? Yep, Applied Physics again...)

In other words, we are in a hurry.

Fortunately the floor of the stable is, as of noon today, ready for the concrete-pouring, and tomorrow there will be a ready-mixed concrete lorry (for once, no mixing the concrete pail by pail!).

Of course, the lorry cannot drive on sand, so the plaster in the yard had to be replaced at least temporarily.

So I replaced the plaster. It's quarrystone, so every stone has a different size and fit. I had to puzzle my way across the yard, so to say.

It wasn't even much - six square meters or something - and I didn't even do it properly. Took more than five hours. Started at 3, finished at 8:30.

That's especially fun when it's late October and the sun sets at 6:30.

Buggre alle thys for a larke. My lower back is killing me. My knees are killing me. My eyes are killing me. My wrists are killing me. I suspect I may be developing tendosynovitis now, too.
Also, feeling cold.

*flops down*

For some reason I kept hearing the Korobushka in my head.
The Korobushka is an Eastern European folk dance. The melody is more commonly known as "the Tetris melody".

Edit: Still feeling cold despite blazing fire in fireplace. Suspect there may be more than tendosynovitis involved. Great.
oloriel: (lotr - sometimes i'm just tired.)
Aaaaargh.

I should be writing about the goings-on of the past month, but there were so many I forgot half of them because I couldn't be arsed to write about them while they were happening, and actually I can't be arsed now, either, even if I remembered what it was.

I should be writing about London and the Drachenfest LARP, i.e. past and this weekend, and I don't know what to write and it'd take too long and I just can't motivate myself.

I should be continuing my crappy story and I just. can't. It's not even real writer's block, I know what happens, I have it formulated in my mind - I just cannot bring my fingers to type it. I stare at the page and think "oh, to what purpose, anyway", and three hours later I'll shut down the computer without anything done.

I should be writing essays for university, good grief, and suddenly it all feels so enormously pointless. I mean, why the fuck should anyone in their right mind want to read or write essays on UNESCO world heritage cultural landscapes in Sweden and their effects on Saami reindeer herding? Or on just what exactly Sir Gawain blames himself for? Seriously, why do people waste their time on this kind of triviality? Just why am I wasting my time studying pointless stuff towards some uncertain goal? Just so in the end I am qualified to have deep thoughts on unemployment in German, English and Japanese?

(Yes, yes, I know - because I wouldn't know what else to do anyway, and at least as long as I'm studying I don't actually have to decide on a career.)

There is trouble about appointments and money and deadlines and expectations and stupid people and I should be making decisions and get stuff done and just fucking get myself out of this stupid depressive hole, and I don't. I try to pretend it's all fine and I can handle it, but just now the simple truth is that I want a good big break so I can get stuff sorted out - except if I had the time, I'd just procrastinate and do other things anyway, so it wouldn't help anyway.

The days are too short, and too long, and I feel like an idiot.

I don't even really know where this is coming from.

I hate being in this mood.

- - -

I think I'll try to write about the Drachenfest tomorrow, and just ignore that the rest of July ever happened, because I'll never get anything done if I tell myself I can't move on before I've dealt with July. July? What July? July 2008 only had three or four days, I swear.
oloriel: (wordage is our business)


(found in The Poems of the Pearl Manuscript edited by Malcolm Andrew and Ronald Waldron:)
1208. gay (Tolkien and Gordon) ]MS fayr

This... is not nearly as funny as it looks at first sight when you know what it means, but I LOL'd.

*coughs*

In other news, May is next to over which means the lovely Shakespeare & Medieval Literature seminar with Colin is over as well. We had our farewell party today which was as usual very amusing, but still sad because one of the two bright spots on my schedule disappears now.
;___;

In yet other news, the thunderstorm that's been looking about to start any minute now for a week has finally come. Mostly lightning, little rain. Hope it washes the sand off my car. The tiny bit of rain we got on Wednesday came with an extra helping of very fine sand. I knew this week's weather came from the Sahara desert, but I hadn't expected it to have brought souvenirs...

In even more different news, would anyone among you coincidentally have SMAP's "Sekai no hitotsu dake no hana"? It's been stuck in my head for a coupla days now and growing annoying and I don't even have it in my collection. Yes, yes, I know I keep mocking SMAP and their ilk, but needs must.
oloriel: (Default)
The Golden Compass apparently won't hit cinemas here until March 1st.

March. 1st.

In other words, it isn't in theatres while I'm here, and by the time I'm back it won't be in theatres in Germany anymore.

Darn.

The Golden Compass of all movies!
*whine*

[/childish obsessiveness]

>.

Nov. 7th, 2007 11:57 pm
oloriel: (bruised and battered)
*whimper*

Sometimes, after kendô practice, I wish my car had automatic transmission.
Like just now, when I have a bleeding blister the size of a two-Euro coin on the sole of my left foot.

Sometimes I really, really wonder why I even do this sport.

Kendô is stupid, smelly, loud and painful. Aside from the foot, my shoulders and thighs are beginning to feel really sore, and my back is aching. Oh, there's a blister on my left hand, too, and not even in the place where a blister might be if I'd gripped the sword correctly.

The saddest thing about it is that I am still taking part without armour, which means I cannot be hit but get to beat up everyone else. Obviously the insane sado-masochistic cynical lefthanded bastard that invented kendô was not without a certain sense of irony.

I try to learn kendô because I think it's fascinating, because I love the hakama and the armour, and because there's this wonderful moment when you come out of the shower after practice and you fell all new-born, awake and accomplished.

But all in all? I must have been mad to ever try and start kendô. It's no coincidence the most frequent colours in kendô are dark blue/black and silver (well, and bamboo). It's like ansereg. Just without the sex.

- - -

On plus side, I am typing this on my shiny new darling laptop. ^_________^

And I changed my car's tyres today. All in all, it's been a productive day.

Gnah.

Aug. 3rd, 2007 08:04 pm
oloriel: (Default)
Thought all along I couldn't make it to the barbecue in Cologne anyway.

After work it turned out that I might. So I bought some foodstuff, picked a zucchini monster, and drove to Cologne.

Spent most of the time in a traffic jam because someone crashed spectacularly in the tunnel just before my intersection. (The someone was unhurt from what I could see, although she did look shaken while the remains of her car were getting towed.)

Arrived, found a parking space, marched to the flat ---
except, alas, I knew yesterday's tentative plan, not today's real plan.

I rung the bell, and when nothing happened, I thought, "oh well, they'll have gone to the park already", so I went to the park. Went through all the park, too, without finding anyone.
Still carrying a bloody 2kg zucchini.

Went to the flat again, rung bell again, nothing happened.
Change of plan, I thought, and as my cellphone had disappeared and I couldn't call anyone to find out where they were, I drove back home again.

It's my own fault for not risking the bossman's wrath and using the internet computer to find out whether yesterday's tentative plan was still valid, I know.
But, gah.
Two hours of time I should've used for getting stuff cleaned up, 10 Euros worth of gas, all for nothing.
*sighs*

I should've thought of trying the other flat, obviously, but somehow that possibility didn't occur to me. Stupid.

Ah well.
- - -

Read a short note about a Japanese figure skater who drove drunk and thus won't be permitted to take part in any competitions for 12 months. This wouldn't be the least bit interesting if the poor guy weren't named - Oda Nobunari.
Oda Nobunari.
And here I thought that only the imperial house was continuing that traditional hereditary syllable thing...

(points for anyone who gets the joke. Except for the Japanese studies guys, because if you guys didn't get the joke, that'd be... sad.)

- - -

One of the secretaries at work tends to blather a lot about things nobody cares about. Today it was about schools and graduations and stuff. Which, as I said, nobody cares about, but - the daughter of the friend she was talking about is named Kaya.
Heh.

Did Kaya have a brother named Daniel? Because this Kaya does. :D

- - -
Komiksy. Ja, es war ein langer Zwischenstopp.
Ihr dürft auch ruhig poken, wenn ich die Dinger vergesse. Jedenfalls bis ich sie ganz drangebe.
- - -

Now I go and try to get some kind of order into my study. Eh.

- - -

Oh right, there was a light earthquake this night! Of course I slept right through it and only learned about it on the radio. The boyfriend says he woke up around that time, but he couldn't say whether it was the earthquake that woke him.

We have an earthquake, like, once in seven years, and I always sleep through them. But then I tend to sleep through everything once I'm asleep.
oloriel: (Time to panic. (by fortunateizzi))
So I heard from a friend from school again. She made my life hell for a while in grade six, and then we were best friends from about grades 8 to 13. And then we kind of lost touch; she went to Kiel to study medicine, I stayed at home and studied geekiness in Cologne.
Her boyfriend has the same name as mine, though, which amuses me. (Not as much as the fact that my best kindergarten and elementary school friend is engaged to her former German teacher who also teaches karate and is much older than her, seeing how I'm together with my former Jûdô trainer who is much older than me...)
She's almost through with studying. She's currently doing her hospital internship in Spain. She's travelling to Rome in two weeks, to Cordoba, Granada and Gibraltar in December, toto Morocco in January. Oh, and she's beginning to write her doctor's thesis in January, too. (See, in Germany you don't automatically get the title of M.D. once you've finished your internship and resident year. You are a medical doctor, but you don't get the nice title to affix to your name until you've written a thesis, just like people have to do for a Ph.D.; you don't have to do this, but if you want to be Dr. Whatever instead of Mr./Mrs./Ms. Whatever, you gotta do this.)
She's younger than me - only by four months, but still. (I don't even know when I'll do my final exam, let alone write a doctor's thesis, if I ever get to that.)
She'd be, like, my mother's perfect daughter.
I am frustrated on so many levels even though it's great to hear of her again.

I'm disgustingly emo at the moment. This really, really, really isn't my month. (And I'm sorry about the griping because I know a lot of people are having a rather worse time for better reasons than my petty whinyness.)

I shouldn't be surprised and certainly not annoyed that the five worst stories made it into the final round of the Ring*Con story contest. I didn't expect mine to get anywhere (it was a) English and b) Silm fanfic, both factors against it), but I had several favourites among the posted stories, and none of them got any further. Instead--- one of the stories is almost exactly like a Wickie fanfic I wrote when I was eight and didn't know that what I was doing was called fanfic. I liked that kind of story THEN, and it was okay for an eight-year old, I guess, but we're all older than that now, and how on earth can a majority vote for THAT kind of story above the five or so acceptable ones?
Note to self: Do not forget that just because your friends are intelligent, well-educated and have good tastes similar to your own, there are a lot of other people in your fandom. (This shouldn't piss me off so much, really. Perhaps it's just IMS (because for PMS it'd be too late).)

American vote, stop confusing me. In Germany, the conservatives are blue/black and the social democrats are red. (But then, in Germany the "Republicans" are neo-nazis, anyway. >_>) So I'm going "Huh WHAT? - oh wait, that's good" a lot.

At least the sickness mysteriously went away for the most part, and I managed to get all my work for the week done these past three days, so I can use all of tomorrow for packing, doing some NaNo and travelling. YES. Damn all this. Cannot cope, off to Fulda.
oloriel: (don't mess with me. i mean it.)
Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.

Yeah, you all love that when you hear it in the song, and nod in agreement and find it deep, meaningful and oh so true.

If you are twenty-twothree and have only a vague idea about what to do with your life, however, you'll find rather less agreement and understanding.

This is completely unrelated to the movie we watched tonight, which was brilliant, damn funny, damn evil, and if that isn't a nasty cliffhanger I don't know what is. Only thing I didn't like was Norrington, because I liked his character in the first part, and this was not it. But oh well. The rest was fun in a really, really weird and surreal way, which is GOOD, and I wish I didn't have my monthly emo trip just now.
oloriel: (the original emo elf)
It has been a month now since I hurt my finger.

It still hurts. Right now, it hurts worse than it has in a while. It feels like the finger is going to fall off or something, all dull aching that goes from the injured joints down to the wrist. WE HATES IT.

Maybe it's the cold.

... and I usually heal so fast. A month is more than enough, stupid finger. Get a grip. ... Literally.

Also, I have terribly sore shoulders and legs for no apparent reason.

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In other news,

30,123 / 50,000
(60.2%)


And I totally fail at trial-and-execution scenes. That is all.

... gnah.

Oct. 20th, 2005 02:50 pm
oloriel: (the original emo elf)
Today I went to Jûdô practice for the first time since practically ever.

During warm-up (playing basketball) I over-expanded, or sprained, or broke, or whatevered my right middle finger. Which meant that I could not attend the actual practice, and can't attend Kendô practice tomorrow, either, if I'm reasonable (then again, you only actually need your left hand for Kendô, the right is just for steadying anyway). I can move the finger theoretically, but if I do, it hurts viciously (and knowing me, that means a lot), so I rather don't. Apparently, that disables the entire hand from the wrist onwards. There are links between fingers I never cared to know about. I am typing left-handedly. Hurrah.

In other news, Pre-modern Japanese and Intermediate Japanese are turning me into a hysteric wreck and the classes haven't even actually started yet. Anyone remind me why I actually wanted to get into the advanced classes? *twitch*

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...mal Menno. )
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Meep.

Jul. 26th, 2005 09:02 pm
oloriel: (eruist)
*sigh* And now I suddenly find myself so broke I can't even buy my usual end-of-semester treat (i.e., some new books). And I encountered so many books over the last few weeks that I'd like to read! (Yes, it's all [livejournal.com profile] desperatefans' fault.) Not that I deserve a treat, but I'd like to give me one anyway. Meep.
...well, at least I found an online edition of The Scarlet Pimpernel. And an old copy of The Phantom of the Opera in the cellar. That'll do for the next two days. And come August I'll hopefully be able to get the next HoME book on the list. *nods*

Where did that money go? *annoyed*

< /gratuitious spoiled brat whining>

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Mal menno. )
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oloriel: (oh for eru's sake. *denethor rolleyes*)
Because half of the exam results are surprising and the other half isn't.

Just as I expected, I failed Watabe-sensei's exam (Kanji, Joshi, Keigo and Translation German->Japanese). If I had known all the Kanji, I would just have passed, but I didn't.

Surprisingly enough, however, I actually passed Quenzer-sensei's exam (Grammar, Translation Japanese->German).

This means I'll have to repeat the Watabe-exam in October. This also means that even if I pass the Intermediate Exam now, it'll officially count as a fail until I have passed that language exam and re-applied for the IE.

*le sigh*
Oh well. Another chance, at least.

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Lyra und die Halbblutüberraschung )
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