oloriel | May. 4th, 2003

... at least I can say that I took part in the German Championships. Yes. Lost both my fights, not surprising; so did the others. But I neither made any absolutely stupid mistakes nor did I get hurt seriously, so I guess that's something to be thankful for. And it was sort of fun anyway. Though once again the way there was a catastrophe. Since I am twenty, I don't find ways anymore. I got lost on the road to Wuppertal on Thursday, I got lost on the way to Kendo on Friday, I got lost on the highway to Pulheim on Saturday. If it goes on like this, I should just stop driving my car. And don't tell me that it's normal for women to have a bad sense of orientation. I hardly got lost so much in the 1 1/2 years before my 20th birthday! Or did the hormones only kick in now? That doesn't make sense either.

And yesterday I probably got the most evil birthday card ever. Not evil because it was mean or something: on the contrary. It was so beautiful and nice and precious and I wish it weren't just an e-mail but a real card. It should have been written in tengwar on parchment. To my obsessed mind it contains the most beautiful birthday wishes that I ever got. I leave it to your guess whom it was from. So I'm felling bad again, sorta ashamed, because my birthday card to the person in question was not quite as nice (way shorter, and a little bit mean). That's why it was evil. The only thing that's even harder to bear than indifference or mockery is kindness and pity. How I understand Éowyn. Really. Only she at least could eventually decide for Faramir. But that's a different story.
*sigh*

Does anything of this make any sense at all?

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