I hate the world today.

Including myself. Don't take it personal. Of course, as a sapient being I'm aware that this isn't entirely fair; but life isn't fair [is it?]. For me, this is not a normal situation [thank Eru - if it were, I'd have taken my leave for good], so trying to behave normally is bullshit. I know that I'm childish and that anger and self-pity don't help things at all; but today I'm not in a mood to discuss. Best to deal with it; because it doesn't help things to pretend nothing has happened, either. If there is any damage done by my bad mood that has to be repaired, I'm terribly sorry; I'll pay for it later, I suspect. Right now I'm paying for three semesters of laziness and a lot of wasted time; but anyone who'd presume I'd be able to hold my temper just because they aren't to blame would be - sorry - an idiot. Take it, or better, leave it; but please don't reproach me about it. I'm doing that myself, thank you very much. Let me be unfair for today; I'll be good again some day soon. Until then, please bear with me. If you can't, I'm more than sorry.

Now, someone hand me a Tantô, please.

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( Heute hasse ich dir Welt )

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