Arghlblargh

[oloriel]

I'm physically sick with anxiety for one, or both, of two reasons.

- finished and posted the questionable meta/shipping manifesto/essay/thing. Well, probably pretentious enough to count as an essay. 44 references on six pages, WTF. Also, provocative much. And probably offending the wrong people. Why did I ever think this was a good idea. Time for the usual "They're gonna kick me out of fandom" angst and much internal hand-wringing etc. The canatics are going to kill me anyway.

- got a call from the bossman from hell. More angst. Turns out they pretty urgently need someone competent to do the calendar of events. Everything has gotten better since last year except that clearly it hasn't. (Between the lines, masked between plenty of "his qualities lie elsewhere" and "the trainee is helping out but you need solid general knowledge to do it right", it appears that the rest of the team just aren't up to it. Well, it is taxing, and the things that were supposed to make it easier last year actually made it worse, which has probably not changed.) Well, I know I can do the job. It wasn't the fun part of working at the magazine but it wasn't the worst either. The question isn't even "do I want to do it?" (To which the answer is "meh, but I don't terribly mind", which is prbly good enough?) The question is "should I sell my soul to that particular devil again" and. I just don't know.

Blargh.

Comments

[dawn_felagund]

It is! The history of the group is that it started as a genfic off-shoot for the LotR Discipline!Fic Yahoo! group. It sort of became its own thing, with a Yahoo! group and an LJ comm and monthly genfic challenges. I doubt most people now even realize that they were affiliated.

The mods of the genfic group decided they wanted an archive for the group, so they "hired" me to build it all those years ago, and I've been a mod there ever since. Many Paths to Tread, iIrc, was the name voted by the members of the group.

Here are MPTT's ratings. No, I don't think your essay is R-rated. MPTT tends to escalate ratings less based on the presence of mature content in a story and more based on how graphic or detailed that it is. I think your essay is solidly PG: It discusses mature topics, but it's not like your mere mention of mpreg accompanies a graphic butt!birth scene (sorry!) or prolonged cousin!snogging. You're discussing those topics but in a scholarly context.

Here's the PG description:

A PG-rated story should be read by parents before they let their younger children read it. The PG rating indicates, in the view of the moderators, that parents may consider some material unsuitable for their children, and parents should make that decision.
The more mature themes in some PG-rated stories may call for parental guidance. There may be some mild profanity and some descriptions of violence. There might be character death. Sexual activity should be mild (such as kissing or embracing). Anything beyond that should be only implied rather than described. There may be some slightly more intense kissing or possibly subtle sexual innuendo. Some of the somewhat more mature themes such as death, pregnancy and/or childbirth, puberty, peer pressure, crime, or alcohol or substance abuse, to name a few, may make an appearance. But these elements are not deemed so powerful or intense as to require that parents be strongly cautioned beyond the suggestion of parental guidance. However, the discussion of such themes in the story may be more in depth than in a G rated story.

Really, I think ratings applied to nonfiction are pretty silly ... but personal views aside, I think you're perfectly safe within PG.

Also, in all my years on MPTT, we've had to ask someone to change a rating just once, so it's not like the mods are particularly stringent or even keeping a close eye on how content is rated.